shits not making sense again.

im not alone this time though. even though traci has ditched me, im ok i have moved on. i have my friends, i dont think its apropriate to label them best and down the line, but the few true friends i have are real ones.

im having trouble dealing. to much is stressing me out. i worry to much. so much has come up lately and its like i dont even have the time to think about any of it. i think i am stuck a kid for life. i am still so nieve to think that i can do what i want. to think that i can always be where i want to, with who i want to. but im not the only person. i will sit in the back seat. i have figured out that, thats what i do. i always put people before me, if it seems that way or not. and thats ok. i need to stop complaining. i need to stop being so mean, i need to be a better person. and i think that latley i have been a bit of an asshole here and there. and i think that is because the few true friends i have, have sorta let me down a bit in my eyes, if they did or didn't i dont know....

i dont know whats the matter with me. shit i need to go to sleep. goodnight