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happy eatser, im not gunna waste my time and tell you what a shitty day i have had and how patheticly weird my family is, who cares right...
right now at this instant, i feel like i have let go of a huge burden. i feel so light. when she said everything would be fine, and to trust her. i did. now i know why. how am i supose dto feel? all my life this is how it goes, i say something, everybody disregards me, tells me how wrong i am, gives me shit and tells me no. only to come back later and be like, fuck ben, you were right. nobody ever listens to me. it is so frustrating. how am i suposed to react? am i suposed to act like this never happened. and go to school tommorow and be all fine. or should i resent all that i was put through, all the pain that was caused? what, what do i do? i tried, i tried so hard, now what............................................................................................?
i dont know. im happy. im sad. im confused. im lost. i dont know what to do. i want so bad to be able to forgive and forget..... but i am me, and i cant do that. but i should. i wish i was a bird so i could fly up in to a tree and just watch people. and think, i need time to think.
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