i cannot sleep at all. i am dead tired and wide awake. no one to talk to. so much to talk about. i dont know what to due.

good news i only made my mother cry once today. i said some little comment and she bursted out in tears, i cant take the crying.

its the eleventh. once again. i dont think i said more than five words to her today. or yesterday, even though i was with her all day. i try to understand, i really do. those smiles. they are what i look forward to. i dont want to think about having to spend the summer with her, that makes me sad. im sorry...... im done.. i will keep this pent up inside yet another day. and if i cant say something about her driving i will be quiet and i wont drive with her, she's getting pissed and i can tell, i wish she could get a clue. what about me.