someone the other day told me i was to serious here, that what i type is to deep... and that i should type nonsense. to them this would be nonsense for they do not understnd. that was suposed to be my best friend. the same kid who told me i was an asshole and the next day wanted my guitar, which he still has, that was about 9 days ago. i didn't turn in my job shadow... can i still???? god i hope so. school is gay to say the least my grades suck. maybe if my mom would have helped me, instead of just crying and making my life a guilty down ward spiraling hell... i wouldn't be where i am today. im at my dads this week. no crying yet! and i have been doing my homework... what does this mean? yeah a couple of weeks ago i said this wasn't going to be a good summer... and i hope that i am not right in saying that, because i still feel like its not gunna work out. just like monday.. my summer is going to be two months of tht, that pisses me off. i am so tired, i havent slept more than five ours in a night in months.. insomnia is no good. i need to runaway to a deserted isaland all by myself..... no not complety alone. if i am to be alone i might as well be here, right?

two finals down... off to take another. my grades are to late an lost to save. so is everything else. save one maybe two or three people, no body gets it, no body understands.