another crazy week. jesse said taking his riddlin was making him jealous of other people being with tiana. this makes me giggle. not drugs... i belive that now a days they call that love. i wish i was at that something corperate show.. so much, i know it was not mine to be at, im glad you had a good time. i dont want to miss any of those smiles..... im jealous, it would be wrong not to be.

i wrote a song.. at least a guitar part. it really needs no words, you can feel it it just by hearing it, and know that it is deep. i cant find the words to write what i want to say. life is so confusing sometimes.

i got new shoes today.

i really like brownies..

i feel sick.

where is my phone..?

im going to sleep now...

i think this is what feels like. i think ive found it. every moment were not together. im only thinking of when we can be. every day is a reminder of something good.8, 10 , 11, 17..heh..4

everytime, every place every sound, every sight. the moon the sun flowers penguins. every song. evertyhing. and everything that reminds me of you, i will always hold on to. becau8se this is life. and with out this.. what would life be. i am tied town, i am stuck, i am so vulnurable. i am open for pain and loss and hearache. i am on the edge of a cliff, one leg dangling the othe held on with a rope. but that rope will never break on its own. not until its cut or burned.. until some one ruins that rope.. but i wont let them.. ever. looking through old year books, reading yours. looking at milwaukie's. makes me feel unsafe, but only for a moment. because none of that matters now. there is no reason to worry. i will always worry, but i know i have no reason too. and even though i pour my self out so many times, and you agree or let it go usaid. i know you care, i just have to look into your eyes to know that. i do know that....... i know that so well. that took nine minutes and forty five seconds

good night, sleep well, dream of beatiful things for tommorow will be a better day, and if for no better reason.. because today will be one more day behind us.