it was a long yet fun trip i would say. plus my very favorite person got to come with me. even though my family is all bitches. and i have had to come face to face with some of my greatest fears in the last week. i also feel that i have grown alot. i took a big step in my level of maturity in the last couple of weeks. good or bad. you decide. i am sad. everything is falling apart. i dont know what to do. i cant save everyone. at least until i save my self. what do i do. if that happened i could not live with my self. un-pure thoughts are part of life but that one really scares me. i dont know what to think. theres a good twenty more at my fingertips.

goodnight